Thursday, July 14, 2011

Disappointed in myself

Wow ladies it has been a while since I have been on and there is a reason for that. I have been lazy. I have been inactive (except for my Zumba) and am bitterly disappointed in myself. It is for no particular reason other than the fact that I have no motivation. It has been so cold in the mornings and I just can't get out of bed to go for a walk and well (especially over these school holidays) I can't exactly go out for a walk whenever I like - even if it weren't the holidays.

I have been eating crap but not only eating crap - I have been eating too much. Like I have been eating past the point where I am full. So instead of stopping when I start feeling full I am just eating. I don't know why and I feel terribly guilty when I do - A. Coz I don't want to get fat again (hell I have bought so many new clothes recently) and B. Coz I still have so many goals I want to reach in my weightloss. I guess it was easy when I did the 12 week challenge as I had something to strive for. There was a prize at the end that I was determined to win but now there is nothing. I want to do bootcamp but it is at a time in the mornings that I can't make it home before my DH needs to go to work. I would also love to do Pilates but have to look in to that one. Hoping I can do it on a wednesday night after my ZIM free sessions run out. I don't know. I guess I am just putting my thoughts out there as I don't really feel like I have anyone to talk to about this.

I haven't put on any weight thankfully but if I continue to do this then I will put on those dreaded kgs and again I will be very disappointed in myself. I really would love to have a person close to my house that was trying to do the same thing - you know walking, weightloss etc etc. No matter. I will get there.


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