I think I am obsessed

My body is a Maori body. I have really chunky but muscly legs, big boobs thanks to both my parents and big arms. If I were to work all these muscles along with some weight loss I would actually have a nice muscular body. 

So in my thinking I have decided that I would do the 'bodybuilding' although that is not what it is called now. I am gonna try and have a six pack. Nice shaped arms. No cellulite (I can only wish). Increase my strength and fitness levels. Not much to try to achieve. I am sick of looking at the woman in the mirror. The fat. The love handles. I hate it all. I think the only good thing about my body would be the size of my (.)(.) and the shoulders. At least I have nice broad shoulders and an hourglass figure. 

In my quest to try and achieve my 'ideal' body I have been obsessed with body building sites and looking at pics on Pinterest. Ahhhh I am hopeless. I can only dream of some of those bodies on there but it is my motivation to stick with it.

I have my BIL's wedding at the end of March so my goal at this stage is to get down to 70kgs. Can I do it...?? I hope so. I have 6wks from today to lose that weight. 8kgs in that amount of time I think is achievable - what do you think. Hmmm don't know whether anyone actually follows or reads my posts on here. If you do - thanks. 

As for support. Hmm my hubby thinks I can lose the weight but in regards to me getting that muscular looks - he doesn't like it but hey this is all about how I feel when I look in the mirror and not about what floats his boat. I am doing this for me. Only me. Wish me luck. 

Monthly checkin

So it has been hard with the kids being on holidays. I haven't been able to get to the gym at all during the week except on a Monday night to go to Bodycombat. Yes I am addicted to the class. The intense martial arts, boxing and karate that is part of Bodycombat appeals to me greatly so I am addicted LOL. I lose my breath from time to time and it is my kick up the butt that - Hey you are so unfit...!!!

With the kids going back to school and my little girl starting her first year this coming Wednesday I am excited. I need the ME time but I will also be sad that my baby will not be at home with me most of the time. I will be going to the gym most days except Wednesday for the month of Feb and then watch out baby. I will be there with bells on every day. My break day with be Saturday. I have to commit. I have to do it. Not liking what you see in the mirror is not good.

I bought a dress for my BIL's wedding that is at the end of March. It is a UK size 12 so supposed to be an Aussie size 14 but I got it yesterday and it is super tight. I had to put on my Spanx just to get it over my hips and couldn't get the zipper up to the top. So another big incentive to do it. To get down to my goal weight. Hopefully I make it there. 65kgs is the goal and I have about 12kgs to go. Maybe not by the wedding but my ultimate goal weight. 

Back to the start

So what is your New Years resolution......???

Like many, mine is to shed the unwanted kilos. I have not been on for a while. Reason...???!!! Coz I piled the weight back on. I mean I got back up to 83.2kgs and although I am now down to 79kgs I am ashamed. Disappointed in myself that I let it get to that extreme. What have I done....??? I joined the gym. Yep. 

I had to give up my beloved Zumba at the start of 2012 as I couldn't afford it anymore and decided that the gym would be the best way to get back in to it seeing I can now afford it again. So my weightloss started again about 2mths ago and I have a long way to go. 

I have my BIL's wedding at the end of March and that is my aim. To be down to a smaller size. Nope no weightloss goal just to look better than I do now. I have lost 12.5cms all over in the past month and plan on keeping that my standard over the next 3mths. 

I want to get toned. Starting today I will work harder and sweat more than I think I have in my entire life. I am determined.

Thanks for reading. 

SlimKicker

Been a long time yes.

Am not proud as I have put on a bucket load.

Thought I would just give a shout out to SlimKicker -

new website and app available for you.

You can win challenges and get prizes for you hard work.

Enjoy. It will be a lot of fun.

We have a loss

After sitting at a weight of 76kgs - 77.5kgs since April we finally have a weight that is under that. My plateau is broken. From last Monday to Thursday (was unaware that weigh in day was Wednesday) I lost 0.7kgs - Yay....!!! Woot woot....!!!!! From Thursday to today I have lost 0.9kgs. So I have lost a total of 1.6kgs. I am stoked. That means I now weigh 75.8. Woo hoo....!!! I am super duper excited. Bring it baby.

I must admit that it is a major adjustment to drop the calories down to 1200 a day. To snack or not to snack - which in the end would bring the total down again. I, unfortunately, cannot drop down to about 900-1000 calories a day. Physically impossible for me.

Another thing I am missing is a Polar. I refuse to buy one. Why....??? Because I refuse to let calories rule my life. I do enough exercise in my day - 30min walk first thing every morning, plus four sessions of 1hr Zumba - to warrant not getting one. Plus I truly don't want to spend the money. Anyone want to give me one...?? No didn't think so LOL. Truly I do refuse to let this rule my life, I have three kids that take up too much of my time to have another obsession to replace the food that I am trying to cut out. So that said - I say bravo to all of you who have the time and the patience to do the counting.

Hope you are all doing well on the challenge. If you are not doing the challenge - hope you are still enjoying my silly little rambling.

mwah

Blogging Challenge

I’m taking part in Kath’s blogging challenge:

1. Describe yourself in 25 words or less. You can get straight to the point – or bring your creativity into play.

Outgoing but shy. Whimsical but committed. Determined but laid back.

2. What brings you to 12wbt? Getting fitter? Losing weight? (Gaining weight??) Are you first timer, a repeat offender??

This is my first 12WBT. I did a challenge at the start of the year - that I won through my Zumba class. I had much success but I hit a stalemate. I stayed at that weight from then til now - so 5 mths. I want to get to under 70kgs and down at a size 12 again. I like clothes so I want to start wearing nice clothes instead of bumming in my trackies and jeans all the time.

3. Why do you blog??

I like people knowing what I am doing. In fact I have about 6 blogs that I manage. I am a blogaholic. On your blog you can kind of speak your mind. You think something and it writes itself - if that makes any sense at all.

4. Who is your biggest inspiration in life and why (doesn’t have to be weight loss):

I would have to say my inspiration is Zuzana at Bodyrock. She is dedicated to helping people stay in shape or get the desired shape for less than 30mins workout a day. I love her workouts. They kill but are so good.

5. What things in life bring you the most joy?

That one isn't very hard. My kids. When they achieve something it brings joy to my heart. They are my greatest creation and I wouldn't put them after anything.

6.What do you think your greatest challenge is going to be this round?

Running. I don't run. I can't do it. I have never ever been a runner. Not even in my teenage years playing netball and basketball. So yeah that would be it.

7. What are you most excited about 12wbt?

Getting to my goal. Being successful.

8. And what scares the pants off you?

Achieving my goal and then falling off the wagon with food etc.

9. Tell me – right now – today – how do you feel about exercise in no more than 10 words:

Worth the pain.

10. Complete this sentence – in 12 weeks time – on the last day of 12wbt I am going to be feeling:

Excited. Proud. Skinny.

Thanks for the challenge Kath.

Update

Hey my sweets.

Just an update. That is all. Put on weight. Grrrrrr....!!!! I know why but not telling you all lol. Ready to start the 12WBT. Bring it.

Current weight today is 77.8kgs but will weigh myself again on Monday. Will do measurements, and before photos on Sunday. Looking forward to playing. The food looks awesome but I can't print off the menu and the shopping list. Grrrrr...!!! Won't even work if I copy and paste - no matter.

Will let you know my cms and {maybe} show you my before pics on Monday. Until then.

mwah